Happy Fucking Valentine's Day

Happy Valentine's Day readers!

It's been a little over a week since my last entry, and guess what??? I found a girl!
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just kidding. You were happy for me for a second there, weren't you?

Yeah, no results, and no advancements...well, that's not entirely true.

Remember how I'm stuck in this little fucking hick-town? Well, like I said, everyone seems to know everyone and apparently, three of the "little" high school girls that worked at (one of two) the grocery store here got very excited when they met me and two other guys I work with. They were flirting and following us around everywhere...wanted to know where we were from...when we told them "Dallas," they said, "You don't sound like you're from Texas!" (in the accent, of course)...and that was just the employees.
I went there yesterday by myself and got googled by more (young high school) girls grocery shopping.

Unfortunately, I am an old bastard, but not an old-dirty-bastard. Oh well.

I've learned that this dating site updates the winks,etc. in 30-day increments, deleting the old...so my numbers might be a little off now...so FUCK, but you'll still get the point.

Here's the update:

56 winks sent - 1 received

13 emails sent - 1 received

And my profile has been viewed 63 times.

If I remember correctly, in my last entry, I talked about how I felt bad about the way I handled that younger girl that I thought could be a problem...
Well, I sent her a short&sweet message:

Hey Sara,

It's been a while!How are you doing? I'm alright...I've been so crazy-busy lately. I've been out of town for work and just got back in tonight and have to leave again Sunday...ugh!!!!!!!!!!I'm doing this all month long...it's good experience and I'm learning a lot, and actually having a pretty good time, but it is sooo tiring. I worked over 60hrs this week and am trying to figure out how to get everything done while I'm at home (for basically one day!)...Anyhow, haven't heard from you but I thought I'd still send you a message :)

Hope all is well!

Josh

She responded:

hey.. i've been busy too.. way to busy!!! its cool.. keeping my mind off the crazy shit in my life!


I haven't talked to her since...not sure what she has going on, but I did what I thought I had to do.

And now, it seems like I'll be doing this traveling-thing for a while...and my subscription to the dating site was scheduled to end in April.
*NOTE* I heard from others that have used this site that the site will automatically charge your credit card for a renewal if you don't tell them that you want to cancel...

So, the other day, I think it was Tuesday, I preemptively cancelled my subscription.

It's still good until April, but I won't be "investing" another $60+ in finding "that awesome girl." (that's my tag line, btw.)

I mean, I'll hardly be at home and when I am at home, I'm going to want to spend as much time as possible with my family and friends before I have to take off again.

I just don't think there will be any time to even try to find/develop a relationship with someone. Oh well.

I haven't given up, don't get me wrong...I'll still do my "wink" and email here and there, but honestly, I don't see it happening.

I really think that I'm just a "confirmed bachelor," albeit not by choice.

Just another day with inept boy.

Happy V-Day fools.