Just another week...

Well, fuck...sorry it's been so long since my last entry, I've been kinda busy, but...do you really care?

So where did I last leave you? I think I was contemplating whether or not I was going to call that girl.

Let's see if I can remember what happened...I was telling myself that I would call her after I ate dinner...which I did...eat...and then I talked myself out of calling.
Okay, so I psyched myself out of calling her. I got nervous. And it was "late," I was looking for all the excuses that I could...
Did I really want to call her? I mean, I was having all these second-thoughts going on in my head about not pursuing the relationship any further because of the potential problems, that is, different levels of maturity, that we'd be on.
I mean...fuck yeah, it'd be cool to date a younger girl. I would LOVE to do that! However, some younger girls are just that...younger. I mean, don't get me wrong...I too, like to get fucked up playing drinking games and hanging out at the bar with my friends, but that's something that I do on the weekends; what with having "responsibilities" and all...man, am I "old" or what? I can't do that all week long. I value my job...yes, I enjoy making money because I like spending money! I like having fun, and that costs money.
But, it's whatever...so I psyched myself out...I chickened out of calling her...I'm lame...
So what happened? The next day while I was at work, I sent her a text message asking how she was feeling - she was still sick, I told her that I "thought she probably wouldn't want to talk when she was sick," and she agreed, said she was tired of being sick, etc.etc.
And I haven't talked to her since...no text messages, no emails, nothing. At the same time, I haven't heard from her, with the exception of getting a "forward" from her that was bashing H. Clinton...guess she thought that I'd like that...
And I hate feeling like I just "ditched" this, but does it really matter???? I mean, this girl does live somewhere near me...what if I run into her? Awkward.
Do I send her an email letting her know that it was cool talking to her, etc. but that it just wasn't "happening"?

Did I mention that I paid $60+ for three months of this dating service?

Here's the updated total:

63 winks-given...2 received

15 emails sent...6 received

and my profile has been viewed...54 times...

Last weekend, I updated the profile a bit...changed the verbage...added another photo...

Not sure if it helped...probably not...

And now...I'm not even sure if the "dating-thing" is even a good idea, especially for this month of February, the month of love that it is...you see, during this month, I'll probably end up being "home," for approximately 8-something days; I'm traveling all this month for work.

But hey...there are prospects! I'm in a little town with about 10k people...and it is a very, very, interesting experience. You see, I'm a "city boy." I could write a whole 'nother blah-g about this...but, that would be too much work. Maybe you'll get lucky and hear something later...but fuck, I got off track again...
My third night here, and yesterday, I actually found a "coffee shop" in this town, and low and behold, there were two cuties working there! I ended up getting my coffee free yesterday (score!), due to some complications with their f'd up credit card reader. I went back there again today to get another coffee...same girl that served me yesterday...asked her if she ever got the machine to work/if it processed my card, she said "no," I tried to getr her to charge me for yesterday's drink and she insisted that it was free...what a nice girl. So I tipped her big.

Lame. lame. lame. I am so lame. Lame is my name...yum, yum, yum...(Anchorman?)
Hey, why the fuck not? This will be my new home for the rest of this month, why shouldn't I try to meet a nice girl? And they can't get any nicer than out here in the country, right? Probably not so hung up on all the things that the "city" girls are on...like money, height, you know the story...girls who like a guy for who he is?

I did check lastnight to see if there were any girls out here that were also on this dating site...there were two (2)...and no, I wasn't interested.

Sorry that this isn't too interesting and that you're probably wasting your time reading this, I promise to make it more interesting, very, very soon.

Soon, I won't even have the time to read all the emails and winks that I'll be getting from these women online...just wait, you'll see. It's going to be amazing.